I’m sorry I hurt you

I’m sorry I lied

Please believe me

Trust me

I tried

I’m trying

I know

Your patience

It’s wearing thin

Like the ice I’m skating on with you.

Promises, promises

In false empty promises I’m a pro

I know

But please believe me

Please trust me

When I make them

I mean them

I believe them

For a brief fleeting moment in time

I’m just finding it hard to let go

Of the one true constant I have ever had

Who has been there for me through thick and thin

Who has consoled and comforted me time and time again

When you weren’t there

And were oblivious to the mess I was in.

I’m finding it hard to walk away and say goodbye

To my other love

To the one that got me high

The one who’s picked me up

And dragged me down

The one who’s driven me crazy

And sent me clear out of my mind

I’m struggling to turn my back

To leave my beloved behind

I know I’m not being kind to you

To have another with a firm, fixed place in my heart

From whom I’m having such a difficult time, a battle, a struggle trying to part

To sever the ties

To which I’m inextricably, inexplicably bound

Under whose thumb

And around whose finger I am ever so tightly wound.

Please forgive me

I don’t expect you to forget

The pain and suffering I’ve put you through

Because I am feeling it too

I know this is hard

That this is testing for you

Well, newsflash, it is really testing for me too

This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life

That I’ve ever had to do

Harder than any exam or job interview

I’m having to work hard every day

Not to be led astray

By my tempting temptress

Whose life is so interwoven in mine

I’m having a hard time

Extricating myself

From my second skin

I’ve become so uncomfortable in

I am working harder than I have ever worked before

To keep myself from giving in

To seduction once more.

Please believe me

It is no easy task

All I ask is that you ease up

That you stop giving me such a hard time

That you give me chance

Can’t you see that what I’m going through here

Is the break-up of a lifelong romance

I will stumble, falter and fall along the way

But I’ll keep trying

And I’ll stop, one day

And somewhere further down the line you’ll eventually catch up

Still not being able to believe me or trust me for quite some time

Not being able to believe that it is for real

After this long, drawn out ordeal

Not being able to trust me quite the same

After this cat and mouse game

Remaining sceptical for a while

That this sordid chapter in my life is really done and dusted and over

It will take time

And patience on both our parts

If you have any left with me by then

I know it’s a really big ask.