Let me recall my euphoria

Let me remember the good times

When I soared so high

I touched the sky,

The moon and the stars

Filled my hands

And glittered all around.

Let me take a trip down memory line

Walking hand in hand with you

My drug

My buddy

Oh happy days

Oh happy daze

But not confused

Clear

Lucid

Insightful

Filled with the awe and wonder of the universe

Understanding it all.

Let me relive the laughter, joy and happiness 

I sought

And which you brought

In abundance

To my table

When my cup runneth over

When I didn’t have a care in the world

And was free

To be me

And to connect with you

On such a deep and meaningful level.

Let me reminisce

About my trembling bliss

My ecstatic ecstasy

The earth shattering

Mind blowing beauty

Of self-satisfaction

In the cocoon of your warm and tender embrace

That makes me feel safe

And relaxed

And so at ease

Was this just a phallacy?

Oh yes, please

Let me recollect

How you made me feel

Oh so very real

And alive

And present

At one with the world

At peace.

Let me recapture that wonderful, magical moment

In time

Eternal and everlasting

Before I stumbled and faltered

Lost my footing and my way

Before I slid down

And slipped up

And fell in too deep

A wretched heap

Before my spectacular fall

From grace

Before I became a complete, total and utter waste of space

A pitiful, shameful, embarrassing disgrace.

Why won’t you let me experience that again

My old, my dear, my beloved friend?